Permission

The world is experiencing an unprecedented time currently, and there is a lot of bad news and doom sayers. It is natural that some of us are struggling emotionally at the moment. However, I found myself with some curious feelings the other day… Walking through my house I found myself smiling, feeling happy, satisfied and blessed; then I had a passing thought that I should not feel this way when so many people are suffering loss. For a moment I was upset with myself. I took the time to sit with these feelings and to process the thoughts that went along with them.

Yes, I acknowledge the loss of others, I feel for those that have lost loved ones, or who are struggling to get by right now. I try my best to help where I can. I am aware of the situation we are facing, and it does weigh heavy on me. It has changed some of the ways I live myself, before this I NEVER watched or read the news; this was coping mechanism from being a military wife for so long…Watching the news just makes you worry, despite no notices of disaster, so for many years I did not pay attention to the daily news, it helped me to remain more mentally stable. However, now I read the news daily, I take a few minutes to acknowledge the situations others find themselves in during this and I send them my thoughts and prayers.

These things, however, do not change the situation I find myself in. I have a roof over my head, I have food to eat, I am surrounded by loved family: my husband, myself, my mother and my little sister all live on the same property, so we are able to spend time together during this time. Time we wouldn’t have had otherwise, when we were all working we hardly saw each other. I am able to get some stuff done around the house that we had not had time to complete. In fact prior to this things got set aside because when I had time I didn’t have energy to do, when I had the energy I had to work and didn’t have time. These things are finally getting taken care of. For the first time in a long time I have had time to read a book all the way through, not just in bits and peices when I have a couple of minutes. I have had time to meditate, to spend time in prayer to my patron Goddess, to write and there hasn’t been the rush of fifty million things that need done and twenty places I need to go. So I am blessed.

During hard times it is important to acknowledge and appreciate the things that we do have, instead of focusing on what we don’t have. It is okay to feel loved, to feel happy with what you have; in fact doing so can bring more blessings your way through the law of attraction.

So for those of you who are struggling with this same issue, give yourself permission to feel gratitude, appreciate the moments you are being given with your family, instead of focusing on the fact that you cannot go out and do other things. Be happy that we have the technology to “visit” with each other and even see each other’s faces. Many times I take a moment to imagine what quarrantine must have been like during the 1918 Spanish Flu outbreak. There wasn’t instant access to news from around the world, you couldn’t talk to other people as many people didn’t have telephones at this point, there wasn’t television or streaming services, no Facebook, No Skype or Zoom; people were completely cut off in their houses. For me this puts our quarrantine into perspective and makes me realize we are truly blessed today, despite the crisis we are facing we have way more going for us than we may think. Perhaps if more people would think about this they might feel differently and be more willing to try to wait things out and lessen the threat to themselves and others.

So readers I challenge you today to allow yourself to focus on your blessings and allow yourself to be grateful and appreciative of what you do have. Let go of the guilt, appreciating what you have does not diminish the compassion you may feel for others.